installation, performance, sculpture, video
This project developed directly from the research I began in my Shadowbox Series. I was fascinated with the phenomenon of anamnesis: The term refers to a ‘loss of forgetting [one’s origin]’, a sudden window of clarity experienced when the structure of an individual’s psyche and that of the world surrounding him / her achieve the same elemental form or pattern. (This can be brought on by anything: the birth of a child, “going up the mountain”, taking psychotropic drugs, or looking at garbage in the gutter, but one has either experienced it or one hasn’t.)
Through forensic investigation into my own personal history and rigorous dream analysis, I physically modeled my own experience of this phenomenon as a multimedia installation, examining a life-changing moment as I experience it in my present consciousness. I was driven to explore the questions it posed about reality, feedback loops and philosophy of mind, not out of obsession with my own life or its importance, but because the event provided all sorts of dilemmas that, by degrees, are basic to human existence. I wrote, directed and edited an eight-minute video in which I performed the people involved in this event, as they exist in my memory, including myself. I designed and shot its special effects, constructed its freestanding labyrinth structure, and produced the project with independently raised funds.